Hey, i know, i know, i haven't written anything, and i haven't gone see you, right? i know... but things have gone... mad-weird-crazy.
You know, well, i don't have the cash for almost anything now :S  So, it's made a lot of things almost impossible....

BUT! I've been thinking a lot about myself, I've been doing my homework, the bad thing here is... I've just been thinking :P Well, it's kinda hard to do all those things i told u last time... like... bleh... i feel confused, I've lost the path again.

Can you look at the time? yeah... i can't sleep, there's something that has been bothering me... and the mom isn't helping with that... she's being exactly the same tho i've been doing my homework there too. Rocío, you have to reply to this!!! please do it! Nothing seems to work... it's been two weeks now... i've been persistent... i'm always persistent... sometimes so much that i can be annoying... i guess that's what makes me fail sometimes... but in this issue...  well you told me otherwise...

Oh! Guess what, i think the meds are working better, i've been feeling kinda better, tho yeah, still with side effects, as always, but i can go out ^_^. Btw, don't you love my smilies? Its almost like if i were there with you XD

Also, nyu, i've been feeling rather bad with something... do u think i put my friends before myself? because sometimes i get confused with that... D:  like... i'm trying my best to be good with myself but still i don't wanna hurt anyone... <.< I guess that's just part of how i am... but... nyu, i guess i have to tell u all that personally... but but but <.<  your homework is so difficult....

Sleepy time... Sorry for the chat-like spell/grammar, its late.... and it's not like i've had time to think about a topic, at least not deeply enough to write something as what i've wrote before....

Loveeeee (something i lack of but... ^_^ i wish u have some)

*Sigh*  I just decided not to go around saying OMG I'm in pain, oh, oh, ohhhh!!! *insert Drama Queen moment here* I'm certainly not like that, but when i say I'm in pain is because I am >.< and that is something i cant really stand, maybe anybody... except masochists...but thats another story... But i need to say what I am going through :/ 

    For some odd reasons I don't talk too much about my illnesses, and well, one of them is because always, always someone has something to say about what they hear like, "Oh yeah, i heard my third cousin had something like that and the developed cancer and died" o_O;;;;;   I mean, I'm such a fearful person >.< i worry about every detail every time, i may blame myself if they tell me "Oh i knew its caused by sleeping with the windows opened exactly on Sept 14th" :S  Well i know that's stupid, and I'm a bit ore scientific <.<  but yeah...
    But anyways, some other friends don't help either looking on the interwebz and telling me "OMG this is serious!!, i think 'this' is causing 'that' and oh you have 'this' too? uuuh this is gonna cost you a fortune" T____T

    So, well, i just don't have idea how, but i happen to have a trigeminal neuralgia, hurts like hell, I don't know the reason, I don't know how to ease the pain, I've been under a lot of treatments but nothing seems to work, well, actually I've been treated for everything except that, and that's what my dentist told me is what i have, ages ago, but other docs just say its something else, some of the others symptoms, but this seems to be causing everything I've been feeling like dizziness, double sight, tiredness, sinusitis (i had this from before but it kinda increased, way too much u.u), headaches, sunlight sensitivity, allergies, constant colds, pain, pain, pain, mmmm, pain... pain, pain, pain, pain in the ear, pain in the jaw, pain in the cheek bone, pain in the eye, pain in the base of the skull, pain, pain, pain >.<;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;; that word just lost sense from writing it so many times... tho the sensation doesn't go away =(  So yeah. I've been in hospital, gone to the doc, different ones, but <.< why cant i get one like those on TV that rly explain you things?? I mean, i think they explain them things bit by bit cuz they forget about anatomy, God knows why, but i know how the body works... or at least i can wiki it... <.< ok, forget about wiki, there's better sites, but yeah, I both remember/know and can find out stuff by myself too, so, why can't I have a decent explanation of what I have?? Bah, stupid doctors... can someone just pay for House to come and see me and just get cured?? Cuz this treatment (for migraine, more precisely to reduce the number of monthly migraine attacks) is just making me worst, stupid pills I'm taking have a lot of side effects :P

    So I'm sorry if I'm out for a while, if i complain way too much but this times symptoms are being just stronger and awful and unbearable but, I kinda have to endure since medical system in this country seems to be really really bad... tho I'm moving myself to get something, i need medical assistance asap >.< and for free, since me and my family are going through a bad economic moment. BUT yeah, I'm so working on it, and hopefully all this bad situations just might help me to go on to where i want to go, to who i want to be, maybe just...remember that...

<.< The things one has to say cuz the pshychologist says.......  well, it's my homework.....

Ja (^.^)v

We never believe when we're told that everything happens for a reason. Well, i believe in that more than ever...

   We're always influenced by other people, sometimes we influence others. And how interesting life can be that, when you're in need, it takes you to the start point. (This is the point where the reader goes, say again?)

   Ok, ok, I'll explain myself. I was just thinking about how I've been "led" to where I'm standing now, where i happen to be really happy.

   You'll see, I think we never really stop to think, how did i get here? What did i do to be here? What led me to where I am now? And maybe some stuff can pop up, but if we really dig down our past we may find interesting things.

   I started remembering, going a little bit back in time every time, it's kinda hard for me to remember sometimes XD, but i could handle it.... and I found it, I found my start point O_O Actually, it's interesting.... how i never notices.... but it has always been there.... or should I say she? I'm referring to my friend Cristina, the same one that, is not said, but she's the one that made the cafe project  where i took my nickname from. She was my friend even tho we weren't in the same classroom during secondary school. My father remembers her an her family for odd reasons XD  We had a lot in common, and similar tastes led us to the same path in High School subjects, well, here it's called area, taken the last year, we liked physics and maths (<3) but i cant remember why she just got out of school, and we never got to do what we liked the best together =( tho we had a lot of fun at least during one whole year of HS. So, the me determined to follow the path of the engineering, got into a university to study the honorable career of Electronic and Communication Engineer (translation: telecommunication circuits <3) and besides the career and the friends i had a lot, really, A LOT of extra activities, i guess i've always been like that, and amongst all that was the students association of my career, just a natural thing, but i liked to be on it, and organize the events for it, and design all i designed for it, the work, everything, i loved that, i found out i liked it more than the circuits, so i decided and was pushed at the same time to change my career, and change university too.
   Due to time, recommendations, destiny, who knows, i changed to this other university, to study Communication Sciences (translation: mass media studies and its production and communication methods and applications) where I met a lot of people, in a lot of time, from different generations... that was a hard thing to do, but not impossible, and quite interesting. I have an special affection for the generation I graduated with, specially because there i met some of the best friends I have now, the friends that introduced me to some sites (sounds weird but yeah), specially the friend that took the time to know my abilities and (took advantage of them) dragged me into a  club (*cough*cult*cough*) where I've met a lot of really good friends, that have showed me some interesting stuff. This same friend that dragged me into the club (yes Lorena, it's YOU), dragged me back into anime, and manga, and so many things (<.< so she took my time away), and her adoptive sister presented me a manga, and then I read it, and then i watched the anime series, and got addicted to it, I nicknamed myself after it, and got a bunch of friends because of it, and that makes me really happy too.
   And well, how did i get to the start point? I contacted my friend Cristina again through one of those sites my friends introduced me to... ^_^
 and now we talk again over MSN, and we'll see each other again next weekend \o/  because we've been through similar stuff. After all, we've never stopped being friends, I've never stopped loving her. The friends I've made lately, during the last three years, and those that are coming back are the ones that are helping me to go out from a hole i think i kinda dug by myself, but it's time I go out, and I'm working on it, and it's so good to know i can count with this people by my side. Thanks to everyone.

Everything happens for a reason. The people we meet is in our way because they are destined to be in our way.

Interesting question... When I was in High School a friend of mine had this project for school where she wanted me to help, to make the blueprints and an outview for a coffee shop. So she named it Stardust Cafe, and I liked the name, thought of me as pieces of star that can develop a new one, and since i love to sing and dance and acting, i thought that's what I was. I really wanted and still do to be an artist. So I kept the word Stardust. Later, at University, I had these 3 friends, who claimed to be blue all the time, and so I was. So we formed the BlueTeam, and everybody added the Blue to his/her nickname. We were then BlueBoy, BlueGirl, BlueStardust and BlueHorny LOL. And, curioursly, at that moment the song Blue, by Eiffel95 or smth like that, was new, so, we adopted it, and everything was blue for us XD.

And as for the Sky, well, I developed a very ugly site at University for computing class, it was HTML, and I named it BlueStardust's Sky, where i was supposed to show myself... and since I didn't have an email account with this nickname (and bluestardust alone was taken) I added the Sky word... thats it!!


Aaaaaaaaaaah translating to spanish later....

Well friends, so, this will be a new space to share my crazyness, most people know about it, but it can be shared so that I can annoy more and more people over the internet, yeaaah! Since I have new friends who speak english (OMG I<3 u all) I will be posting in both english and spanish, or so I'll try...

So, for now enjoy the cuddly elephants on the top until i can manage evil muggle CSS and make this a nice spacey place.

Love!




Amigos, este será un nuevo espacio para compartir mi locura, la cual ya conoce mucha gente, pero puedo compartirla para desconcertar más y más gente en toda la internet, seeeh! Ya que tengo nuevos amigos que hablan ingles (OMG I<3 u all), estaré posteando en inglés y español, o eso intentaré...

Así que, por ahora disfruten de los elefantes pachoncitos de arriba hasta que pueda manejar el muggle demoniaco CSS y hacer de este un lugar espacial.

Love!